Day notes March 2026

I want to keep myself accountable and work on stuff everyday, hoping writing daynotes in march will keep me accountable

Started on Mar 20, 2026

I finished coding almost everything I’ve designed so far in my dataviz project and holy crap what a high that is

There are still several visual bugs I need to figure out what’s going on, I also increased the scope, will be adding another dataviz at the end to showcase some basic statistical calculations I’ve made for each song. Very excited for that

I ate enough today but I’m still not sure if these are the meds for me, we shall see, however I am genuinely very very happy for the progress I’m making. Coding requires a lot of focus and I found myself feeling very dizzy throughout the day. I have felt that way before but today was way more intense than before.

Still running on the high of hanging out with my bestie yesterday, I felt so seen and loved, god bless companionships, such a joy to be alive.

I watched an episode of The Makanai: Cooking for the Maiko House. It was calm and lovely, might watch another episode

Now watching love on the spectrum and winding down. Excited to wake up and work on this tomorrow.

March 6, 2026

OMG I STARTED CODING THE DATAVIZ what the actual fuck, I still have to apply styling and make it vv pretty but it has come so far already!! Excited to finish it heehehhe. When I designed it, something truly awoke in me, thought it wasn’t possible but it is and I just woke up and tried, I’m glad morning santrupti tried instead of scrolling or whatever else I was doing

Got a new gas, it now costs 2200 rupees for a 12kg LPG, I’m pretty pissed.

I spoke to my therapist about some issues I’ve been having and it didn’t help at all. Maybe I’ll write about it

Kulfi was bought and ate, I didnt enjoy alas

weekend was great, met friends at cubbon read, met friends at indieweb club, I was happy

Something small triggered my rejection sensitivity dysphoria and my mind was out for a good two days just watching bridgerton. I wanted sophie + benedict love story but I am so much like Kate that I think anthony might be my fate lol send help

I hungout with my bestfriend after a very long time and it was the most present I felt in a while

Tried pudina hara for the first time, what a weird medicine lol

made this beetroot palya with these beets that were so sweet and wonderful.

March 6, 2026

too sick to even exist, hopefully I will be compelled to move tomorrow. Hungout with a friend and couch potatoeed all day from the stomach bug fever

March 5, 2026

Made some lovely progress with the data viz last night after publishing my day note, I realised after reading this article by Aman Bhargava that I do not have a story, I need to have a headline about what this visualization means to me and what I made it for, so I’ll be trying again and with a different style and approach.

Listening to this on repeat doing work - here ;
the music is so tender, it really is such a mirror to sophie and benedict’s relationship, they are so kind, tender and sweet with each other. I love it so much. I feel like a lil duckling being pushed to try swimming in the water again and learn how to do it, it’s beautiful, kind and helps me sit down. I hope to be this tender towards myself and other people I love.

I finally finished the design of my data viz. Very excited. I might be shooting for the stars for what I wish to achieve but I think, that is the point of design - to keep pushing practicality of usefulness and the beauty that code can behold. I shall try and failing will still be marvelous.

I wanted to make more progress but I struggled to even get up today after some work, it has been rather hard. In the afternoon I ended up with a really bad stomachache, the piercing pain was not fun for me. It was a scare, I nearly ended up in the hospital but it thankfully passed. My body is extremely delicate considering my mental health, is it not enough to be mentally ill that I also get physically impacted? I have ended up in Emergency room 2 times just in the last year from my tummy troubles. It’s not fun.

Loneliness is something I’m deeply suffering with these days, staying at home all day everyday, not seeing a human being or hearing my own voice outloud is maddening. It almost feels like having a fever. Considering getting a job, just so I don’t have to deal with this anymore I swear. I know why it is, I have lost a couple of friends this year and it has been devastating, I am terrified that if I don’t constantly talk to people, something in their mind will change or they will remember an instance where I might’ve hurt them and I won’t be there to defend myself and lose more friends. I’ve also been making some new friends, I am worried I am being too much without realising, I am terrified of being ostracised. I meditated twice today just so I can manage my anxiety. It is a lot to deal with. But I will see my friend on the weekend, I am greatly looking forward to it.
There is also another type of loneliness that I experience from not being lost in something new and novel, that has captured my attention so deeply that nothing in this world exists, except me and this thing I am learning about. The ability to give full attention to something is a gift. A gift that I have not been able to access since losing friends. It is how I feel worthy, by giving my attention to things, being moved by the thing I am observing/ trying to make. I used to love it so much that my biggest dream was for everyone to take a ship to mars and leave me behind. I could go as far as I wanted to, learn everything I ever need to. Obviously, now that I have loving friends I do not dream of this. But knowing that I was that self sufficient emotionally, makes me envious.

I finished watching “How to get to heaven from belfast”, it starts off hella slow but really builds up, enjoyed it. However it does not close any arcs and is not a standalone season which PISSES ME OFF. God, such annoyance, there is not even a confirmation of a second season, I’m yet again left with more questions than answers. How do these writers go to sleep knowing they might forget some arcs or what plans they had??! (That probably speaks more of my lack of work life balance than anything)

I hope I feel better soon. I hope this project sees light of day, I hope I find worth in things I want to do and places I want to see.

March 4, 2026

I ate 3 meals today, went to the doctors and filled up my medication, spoke to friends. I bought a lil teddy + Dr Seuss book for a newborn baby in my building. She was lovely, had a lot of hair for a newborn. Lots of hair ties and 3 pairs of socks have been bought. Spoke to a friend about another friend who wasn’t as keen on rekindling our lost friendship, I spent years building this friendship and I am in pain, but one day I hope the grief isn’t as overwhelming as it is today. I functioned and fed myself even in grief & this immoveable all-encompassing sadness and that was enough. Hope I feel better tomorrow and try and work on things that are capable of bringing me joy and contentment. I wish I got some work done, I will try again after writing this note.

March 3, 2026

ate a banger meal in the morning

wireframed like pros

fixed an issue with my headphones, for months now whenever I connected my sony 1000xm4 to my mac, there would be these flickering sounds, not with my phone, only mac, my guess was something was clouding the signal in the network. And I was fuckin right. It was me using other bluetooth devices like my mouse and keyboard. Once I connected the wire, it fixed it. Can’t believe how long I was stuck with this problem

Design is one of the hardest things to do. It’s hard to start and it’s hard to finish and let go. The perfect feeling you’re trying to evoke almost never comes. And you can never finish designing something because you know only how it’s supposed to feel but not how to get there. There’s many processes you can follow to help you. One of them is moodboarding. I found this beautiful melancholic image that I was sure mitski makes me feel. I tried to use some of the elements from it to the page and failed miserably. That led to me being extremely unsatisfied → doing some batshit thing I’m not supposed to do + hoping watching a youtube video and after youtube video and nothing worked. And now I’m sitting here with a not so bad design, the severe pressure of not meeting some crazy expectation and unfinished work. And thus perpetuating the cycle of - maybe I don’t deserve to be a designer

I’m overthinking this, I know I am, this is dumb. I should just do my best, see if a gaussian filter will make feel better about my design and move the fuck on, next project hopefully I’ll learn something new. It’s ok. I will try again and again, tonight, tomorrow, or say fuck it and publish the graph that I already have with a font in generic serif and come back if ever I feel like looking at it again.

March 2, 2026

It was a drag, long day, low energy.

Digitised Mitski song data viz points I’d plotted on paper

Went to therapy after a long time to talk about stuff dragging me down

Looked up datasets on BBMP site fto find an interesting thing to visualise and did that

Went to gym, not a bad day at all, glad I went (highlight dumbell chestpress : 10kg each hand)

struggling with food again, hope I eat well tomorrow

Mitski album data viz design some progress but not entirely done, hopefully tomorrow

Coded up the projection, it looks mid af, needs help and pizzaz, that I shall leave for tomorrow